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Ernest Banuelos
Beloved Husband and Father


A WIDOW'S FEAR

I WATCHED HIM LEAVE DAY AND NIGHT
AND DRESS IN UNIFORM MY FEAR IN SIGHT
TO WONDER IF HE WILL RETURN SAFE AND SOUND
THE FEAR I FELT IS SO UNKNOWN
I PRAY TO GOD TO KEEP HIM SAFE
AND TO RETURN HIM TO ME LATER THAT DAY
HE WALKED SO PROUD THE STAR HE WORE
BUT IN THE END HE IS NO MORE
FOR NOW HE IS IN GOD'S SAFE HANDS
ALTHOUGH IT WAS BY HIS OWN HAND
THE FEAR I FEEL IS SO VERY TRUE
THAT I OFTEN WONDER WHAT TO DO
MY LIFE HAS CHANGED WITH BOYS TO RAISE
MY FEAR IS NOW A CHALLANGE BUT WITH NO DISGRACE
BE PROUD OF THE MAN THAT I ONCE KNEW
FOR IT WAS THE STRESS THAT PUSHED HIM THROUGH
ALL ALONE WE WILL BE FINE
MY BOYS AND I WILL GET BY.

IN MEMORY OF MY LOVING HUSBAND
DEPUTY ERNEST BANUELOS E.O.W. MARCH 09 1997
Sylvia Banuelos